Descent into Darkness

Riding that high was fun while it lasted
but the crash that came afterward
destroyed me
devastated me
devolved everything I had worked for:
   sense of self-worth
   confidence of character
   and of course, my dignity
Everything was ruined

I told myself, no regrets. Whatever happens will be for a reason
But what was the reason of my demise?

I'm loitering in the past where I've got no business being
thinking of every way I could've avoided this doom
I'm back to where I started
and I don't know if I can come back stronger this time
I feel hopeless
lost
dead

Reflecting pool

Like bleach
Cleaning away the dirt
but leaving nothing
because it's too strong
I cleanse my mind

I've moved on from toxicity before
But you're not toxic
You're just what I needed
Yet somehow you poisoned me anyway

I drown the memories
that keep floating to the surface
of my conscious mind
Drown them until their lungs fill
And they choke until they fade

Meanwhile I try to stay alive
To keep my head above the surface
But I too, am drowning